2021

Dear Rohan from 2021,
This is your buddy from 2020. I hope corona is gone. That shit bothered a lot. And I so goddamn hope that I've achieved something by 2021. Just a few things is all. I'm gonna write one for 2026 now, make sure you do too, and write one for 2022. Gotta keep reminding your forgetful ass.

A recap:
This year was different. Sem 1 of college was amazing, such nice people. Riya, Bhalu, Vishal, Pandi, Rahul, Rugs, Samee, Shivani, etc are life. Also shoutout to my all time fam Adarsh, Ashish and Shingar. There's no Rohan without them.

Sem 2 was fucking gorgeous (just the beginning). I can't remember other times I've had so much fun. Riya has blossomed in my life like a lotus in algae. And she makes everything fragrant. A major shoutout to her, I hope to God she's still around.

I have been in a cycle of depression and motivation like sine wave for the past 6 months. All I can say is I've decided I can't do engineering and I'm gonna focus on other shit.

So I started Captain book in March. Since then I've invested around 5-6k rs in material and courses and promotion. I've made only 2k so far. I also made around 570rs through stocks!! 20rs profit but stillll.

I think I'm into reading books, though I don't read them.
I started instagram pages, though I don't work on them.
I started working out, for 2-3 days every month. Yep, terrible.
I've woke up at 5am only 3 times in last 200 days.
I have no quality of a successful person and I swear I'm doubting myself. I look at me and see a fat and lazy underachiever. But you know, I still think you're a better man that I am. All my past selves have thought this I know, but I really want you to be a better man than I am today. Please don't disappoint me.

I know I've been an utter failure uptil this day, but change has to come. And it will. I look up to you. I hope you're happy and healthy. I hope Mom, Dad and Parees are fine. Send my love to them. Do mom and dad still fight? How's the business going by the way? Take care of them.

About today:
Today I understood the power of unpredictable variables of life. We are mere puppets for nature. We have no control over things. And things will never ever go according to the plan. You will be surprised with unrealistic challenges that you never thought can happen. From the beginning of the day till the end, I faced with such unpredictable challenges, I almost gave up. When Ashish cancelled, when her dad called her back, when her family started to call, when car started bothering, when her mom called, when the tyre exploded, when the rain started, when the road started getting blurry, when the hope started dim. Yet we faced all those challenges and came up better. I have to say this, it wouldn't have been possible without Ashish, Shingar and Adarsh. They're my true treasure and my true power. Today I saw them going to heights even I myself didn't go. All of that without technically hoping for nothing in return. I'm blessed to have such friends. My problems literally vanished because I had them. I swear I'll never ever doubt their friendship. You shouldn't either. Also, She is the one, remember this. That chandler sweater is still there, right? Okay now hear this out.

I know I'm younger than you to say this but,
Stay grateful.
Stay healthy.
Stay happy.
Just do what you fucking love.
Be fearless. Be confident. Be bold. Be brave.
Don't be lazy or don't procrastinate.
Spread love. Spread value.
And thank you for letting me hope that future is beautiful and better.

With great respect,
Rohan from 2020