May 31, 2020 (day 613)

To my favorite person in the world,

It's honestly weird yet funny how I always end up typing my letters around 3 - 4 AM. You seriously need to get out of my head because you always find a way to get in it, sometimes even in my dreams. Did I mention I'm in love with you? That's also a song lyric. It was actually used as a serenade. There are days I listen to songs and I wish I could sing them to you even though I know those will also not be enough to express just how much I love you.

We're different (well duh). Polar opposites even, probably why we argue so much. When people ask me how we get along, I don't know what to respond because I'm unaware myself but we work well don't we? It's the difference that complements our relationship. I could say I loved before you but I know it was never as intense as what loving you feels like, not even close. And that's how I consider you as my first love. And they say no one ever forgets their first love.

I know I said I don't believe in soulmates but I might have to change my mind. It feels like we're meant to be and the universe has found ways to make that happen. In another world, in a parallel universe, in a past life, this life or my life after this (if they are true cause we reincarnate), I know I would love you still. Unfortunately our love won't exactly go down the history books.

I used to think love was bliss. And yes it can be bliss, but it can also be pain. Because if you say you love without getting hurt then it is not love. There's a quote that says "To love is to risk. Therefore, to love is to be brave." People will never not change. It's inevitable. To love is to accept that change. That if you ever decide to change what you look like, to develop a new annoying habit, to have a different dream, to own various things, to face your fears, to rise or to fail from everything in life. I will be right here, with open arms.

I might run out of words before I even get to say my wedding vows.

Lovesick, Kei