Dear FutureMe,

hey you been in love to someone and its the first time you also confess your feeling vice versa, i feel so fuckin kilig about it i dont know why it happen and i dont know how did it happen, it started on sulog with my co worker and then we end up being friends, exhanged message, first i didnt notice and treat her normal, but as time goes by the feelings changed, i feel comfortable with her. still could remember the first time we do night out with friends, we wer sitting besided it other she keeps holding my hands, and they wer asking for kiss, but i refuse i got so shy about it. :). then in the morning she ask you to jog and say sorry about it. hahah funny remembering crazy things with her. its my first time to be happily inlove. she confesed she dreamed about me we were kissing, and its her first time to dream about it. lols! everytime we ride taxi together she keeps holding my hand. and i feel butterflies in my belly, she was the reason i moved on forget the first person i feel inlove with. she the most amazing person i knew.she may not be that expressive and patience but shes one of a kind, shes sweet in a different way, i wanna tell here this everything. im so dam in love with her right now. like literally right now. keep dreaming about her always. how i wish there was an us. after she confess her feelings everything chaged. she keep distance and make gaps between our friendship, i dont know why wanna ask her im so confused. she was to weak and couldnt fight the way she felt and decided to make elude shes in relationship with someone right now. i wanna tell her everything thats bubbling in my mind. im writting this letter to remind myself after a months that i got so fuckin in love with someone, this is the first time and worth to remember, yeah maybe there was never an us but still its worth it. i could waited for a lifetime, that someday youll realize that this is worth to try, lets take chances, honestly im afraid but its ok as long ill take chances with you. i wanna tell them that im in love with you, but you dont want it to happen, you want to keep this as a secret. LOLS! the way we treat each other is like wer together we express our feelings in a joke type, but maybe both of us thinking its reality. i wrote a song for you. and i wana sing it to you. why cant be the universe be good to me? it made me realize that i can be in love even where not togther as long as your happy, seing you happy is Ok with me even though it hurt, well i guess loving is sacrificing. maybe someday when i read this message in the future either we together or im not in to you anymore. it took 8months for me to realize and it took 8months for you to admit. why our time didnt match ?right now im waiting for your text or reply, if you only knew how i feel at this moment wanting so much, i wanna hug you kiss you and want to make you feel how much i love you. i love you so much til it hurt, i love you more than i can think, if i only all the words to make you believe then ill say it all even more. heres the song i made


THING CALLED LOVE

Verse 1
We started as strangers in a different world, i feel shy when you say hi with a smile, shares joke and laugh like we're about to get choke

Chorus:

You made me happy, you made me sad,
you made me crazy, you made me jealous,
you made me laugh, you made me mad
but its OKEY cause you made me believe in love

Verse 2

Confused is the word starting to be used, is this the thing they called LOVE that they keep wishing from above, all I'm sure is me wanting to see the glimpse of your smile even if you're a distant like a mile


VERSE 3

Ohh! This is really LOVE but we're both weak and got no Guts, but its ok baby im ready, ready to make this last, lets just continue pushing our luck, as long as there will be you and me taking this crazy chance.


January 28,2015 is the anniversary day i saw you :)