Hey Mockingjay!
Dont tell me you are over this hunger games obsession of mine!
Well, in any case- you'll still be my mockingjay ;)
So, I found this place where I can send my future self letters, and trust me I really did want to talk to you.
I have always typed unsent letters to people, which never reach them ofcourse; but I wanted to write a letter to you - because somewhere inside me there is this faith that of all the people, YOU are going to understand me.
So, here I am typing a random heartfelt letter to you when I have my physics revision test tomorrow. You do remember Sanjay sir, dont you? He is the only person who makes me want to study and not just because he's a great teacher or I like physics, but because he is the only person in school who believes in me. I wish I can make him proud one day. You tell me, I did score well in my boards no? Did you get into a top university? Have you been able to make your parents feel proud? I wish you have. I wish all the financial problems we are having right now are gone by now and you and brother are doing well in our lives. How much did you score in boards, though? I hope more than 99. You see, just yesterday I asked muskan to tell me if there'd be one thing I could do for her before we part ways, and she asked for two. The first one was that I get more than 98% in boards and the second that I never forget her. You havent, right?
Wait- I'll copy her entire message here- read it, it's so hilarious(the way she's written it) :
"But if you still wanna give me something here's it: you get min 98% in boards...That'll be my gift n if you allow I wanna ask for one more thing.....you will NEVER forget me....n you are gonna continue meeting me even after you are settled n have little kids running around you who god are gonna annoy you to the extent I couldnt.....They, I swear are gonna achieve those levels...I'm gonna guide them....That's all I want."

Well, this isn't the end of the message, we talked a great deal on how each of us are gonna miss each other and other senti stuff :P I had asked this question to Ruchita and Deepika also.
Ruchita said she wants to spend an entire day with JUST me being there for JUSt her. I know, it's sweet ^_^ I figure, you must have had done it long ago. And deepika hasnt replied yet to this. The kinda person she is, needs atleast an year for everything!
God, I wonder how many school friends are you still in touch with. You remember Swasti Mehra, right? Of course, she is the only person responsible for my happiness today.The gem of a person she is. You know, how people say that the best person in their life is their bestfriend or soulmate? WEll, you might be knowing I'm completely over the concept of best friends now, and swasti is too; and trust me we arent even close friends but she is the best person in my life right now. She has taught me so much unknowingly that it's difficult to even explain it .I really wish to remain in touch with her for a long time, though I know with her- there's the least possibility of that! Are you in touch with her?
Who else do you remember? Harshita Pasricha- my baast fraand ? Oh, she was an awesome friend. I'm gonna miss her, really. Oh, the farewell is in 10 days and I am already feeling so emotional lol. Anyway, Tell me about yourself!
How many books have you bought by now? You do read regularly, innit? And I hope the craze to read is still the same. I remember that was one of the reasons which made me friends with Swasti ^_~ And do you watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S regularly? DONT tell me you are over it! How can someone be over such a marvellous thing! Trust me, whenever you feel low, watch Friends- It'll keep you going.
Though , I hope you never feel so lonely that I felt at some point of time. I regret doing all that. Trust me, I'm so happy for you now and I want you to keep the spark in you alive. Keep up the red, orange yellow flicker beat, sparking up your heart ^_~
This is my favourite song right now, what's yours? Well, if it has changed, it should be atleast better than yellow flicker beat!
My day says, that all the difficulties I'm going through are all going to result in a better tomorrow, if I keep working hard and am optimistic. Hey tomorrow of mine, tell me- is life enjoyable now? Have you been able to find people you trust now? I hope so. I hope you have become the ideal working daughter and are assisting mom and dad without any ego or any other issues. Remember, dear me, THEY ARE THE REASON OF YOUR EXISTENCE!
I wonder what kind of a personality you have formed over these last five years. You are turning 25, aren't you? I'm turning 18 and this year I have my boards too around my birthday...but nevertheless, I get to turn into an adult! I'm happy. The other day, I was reading something in which it was written that adulthood isn’t just about leaving your nest but it’s about growing while understanding your responsibility. I guess, I'm already an adult then. :P My friends say, I am way too mature for my age. I hope you are not. I hope you are able to enjoy your life like any normal 25 year old lady- Joyously.
So , do you still write...? Well, I hope not! cz I write only when I'm unable to vent out my feelings to anyone and I hope you have found many friends by now and your faith in faith has been restored now. :)
Lastly, I just want you to remain happy and never let a day go by when -
1)you havent laughed genuinely at least 5 times
2) Read a book, even if it's a little bit
3)Studied
4)And thanked God and your parents for this utterly amazing life of yours.
5)KEPT THE SPARK ALIVE.

Now, its not that I'm out of words or anything but I have my exam tomorrow and I have to go.
But, before I sign off-
I want you to write a letter to your future self- the 35 year old you asking her to keep the spark alive as well.
Be happy and love yourself.
Trust me, YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PERSONS ON EARTH...and if you will, you can achieve any thing!

Till then,
Take care
Yours, Ri :)