Dear FutureMe,
And as usual I just said "Shut Up" to smita. It is 00:08 and yet another day has passed leaving a day less for all of us to be together. Though it never mattered in the beginning how long we were all going to be together but somewhere down the line, at some point in time, it started to matter. It hasnt been long that these feeling has started to crop up in my head and leaves a pit in my stomach. But now it does and it leaves behind residual feeling of apprehension and a bit of fear as to how the life would lead me further when i wont have the only cushion of my life, my friends. Right now, Priyanshi is lying down, staring at the ceiling(her usual habit of the time she is studying), poorvi is sleeping, giving rest to her back and smita as usual busy with pleasing the world. nobody is talking or even looking at each other but it feels ok, it feels home. what will happen when move from here and the people that make us feel safe move farther and might get lost into oblivion? It is not like we wont meet other people or make friends with them but can we actually replace what we had with these people? if no, then what will happen? as much as this thought baffles my train of thoughts, it makes me happy that i could create a bond like this with these people. I hope that it stays intact. I dont know if we would be in talking terms or not, how long it would have been since we met, but i instruct yself to feel happy when i read this mail then because i had this, i had THEM.

LOVE,
MYSELF.