Hi Mum and Dad.

Just wanted to send you a letter for Christmas from the past. Yes its early for Xmas but is to avoid late delivery. Anyway just wanted to say how much I love you both and how much you mean to me! I know I don't express it much and wish by now my affection for you both is shown more than the past. You both mean the world to me and YOU BOTH made me who I am today. I learnt everything from you both including morals and am grateful for every ounce of support and stability you have given me both educational and financial even though we are not well off. I only ever wanted to make you proud and I just don't feel I have accomplished this yet - I mean with everything that has happened to me. I have no permanent job at present, no degree, no place of my own, no marriage or children and with the big thing that affected the whole family when I was you know where. I get so depressed from all of this and that's why I protect you as much as I can by not opening up to you both as you cant cope. I also try not to have any support "money wise" and try to save every penny and put to good use so as only to take what I really need. It makes me feel guilty and worthless not being able to be in a position to pay you back and my future so bleak at present - hope this may of changed for the better by now - if not then I hope at least you now understand a little insight to me and that I hope one day to be a person like you both are to me - loyal, honest and understanding with unconditional affection. I feel like a disappointment and I know as parents you will say this is not so but, I just wish my life had been different and I had gotten a break to be more of a support. Well I hope this letter finds you both well and at least expresses what I wasn't able to say or show until now. Lots of love always and forever. Gary x Proud to be a MORRIS!