A letter of reconciliation, realization and apology.

I know I said these a lot of times but I was really blinded by hate and anger. I became the person I hate. I was hurt so much that you thought I was toxic that I became one. I kept fighting for my rights and my pain that I didn't realize I was already creating a mess. Your mistake and yung mga ginawa mo sakin do not give me the right to be rude. Even if you think na hindi mali yung mga nagawa mo, I should have became more understanding, instead I fought fire with fire. I guess that was my whole issue? I was toxic for you when you did something wrong towards me and then I wanted to clear myself na hindi, kaya sumabog ng sobra.

That's why, you probably have felt that I have become silent. 2 months palang naman, hopefully buong 2020, tuluyan na akong manahimik. Probably by this month, I am doing my best to become a better person.

But, maybe at this point, kahit may pain padin, I have already forgiven everyone. Una yung sarili ko at pangalawa ikaw and yung mga taong binuhusan ko din ng galit. I realized that I do not need to force my rights as long as I know how to humble myself and respect people, even if hindi nila ako nirerespect. I am sorry if I also blamed your friends for that or even yung professor mo, I realized I can't control people but I can only control my emotions. Alam ko hindi sila aware na nasaktan nila ako sa pagkunsinti sayo but that's fine, I have released myself from all that.

I don't know kung sino ang ka-celebrate mo ng Valentine's Day. I hope you are happy. I apologize if I distanced myself. I also don't hate your family, in fact, nami-miss ko na nga kayo lahat eh. But, I guess detaching myself from you will only really give us peace parehas. I know na choice ko to but at the same time, I can't force myself on you anymore. Sana surrounded ka nga mga mabuting tao na iinfluence ka sa tama at hindi sa mali.

I don't have anymore news regarding you but I can say na I am proud of your achievements and I know na you can surpass all the trials you've been going through.