Dear FutureMe,
How's life? Have you succeeded in clearing NEET and are u in a reputed college? Have you scored 90+ in boards? So what are your plans ahead? Are you still in touch with your best friends :- Porvil, Rushali, Shagun.

Remember Amul lol? How we used to irritate him( a revenge of his bullying me). Writing Amul on walls, trees, everywhere, amulmon animations, That JENNY de cousta scene, eating farra, kicking in front of class, amul page, group, blocking me, Satya scene in English group...
I hope you will smile after reading this.

So how are your studies going now? Are you scoring good ranks in college? Do you have a girlfriend( lol)? How many friends do you have there, true ones? Do you enjoy it? really? what about video games lol? Paying gta v, ur dream, true yet? You build a pc, or bought xbox or ps4?
And what about your collection of games?

Hey Mr. Fat, what about your goal of losing all that meat after Neet, are you fit now? Do you now play outdoor games?

You received this letter today, march 9th, but whats special about this day? You remembered that you once sent a friend request to Rushali in 9th, and she once asked you "Are you the one who sent you a friend request?" How excited u were that day, that u waited eagerly till dad came home, with his new phone Galaxy S(kinda sucked lol), and the first thing u did was to open fb, and see whether she accepted it or not, she didn't, and you were about to cry.

Remember when she used to pull ur cheeks? She called you cute , and said you were cuter than her. Remember when Akansha ran after pulling ur cheeks from behind, and that Rushali told all her abouts about she pulling my cheeks, and once Anjali came in lunch to ask she wanted to pull it, but i had to abuse to lakshay in front of her to stop her from pulling it. How awkward it was lol?

Remember that in 9th Physics practical, she sat next to you, and your face was red as hell. And u thought that in all practicals ahead, she would sit next to you, and it would be fun?
Remember she asked you that day "do you need any help?" more than 5 times, and i was like No no no no no...

Remember that dream, that suicide one, you told her that yet? I guess, you should.

On March 9th, 2016 she accepted ur friend request, and you sprouted a seed of friendship. Remember that whenever she used to see you, she used to wave her hand, and smile with her cute face. How much you appreciated that.
Remember messaging her at 12pm on her b'day and sending her that card which she loved? "Dear Rushali, Happy birthday to you. You're a good friend, and even a better person. May god bless you with wonderful times ahead", how much she loved it. You had to regret her invitation. and the next day, she came to meet you, and that "20-25" years joke lol.
She said goodbye during holiday too.

Remember you once asked her about abhishek being her bf when she put you in same chat with him? I am still suspicious lol.
Remember she advised you many times to stop playing coc.

Idk why u became depressed after july, i guess you started overthinking a lot. You started saying her that she ignores you, and that she ain't a true friend, but she forgave you each time you sincerely apologized.
It bought a tension in our friendship, but i also feel that it strengthened it too.

Remember that quiz day, when she first time freed time for you, and came to ground to talk to you? How lucky you felt that day. She asked about my studied, my life, and i came to know that she genuinely cared for me.
But again, another depression episode, and i irritated her to that level, that she blocked me.
Days passed, on bio Pb2 when we had to sit in same room, i had planned to say sorry to her, but lacked confidence.
On maths pb2, she sat ahead of me, i said her best of luck, i thought she wouldn't reply, but she did. But i was unable to say sorry to her.
But the next day, u made another id, and messaged her, she ignored it, but at the same time, unblocked you.

Does it still bother you that she never message you first, that she never share about her life, herself... with you? Do you talk now? And does sometimes she message first?
Does it still bother you that she never ask how you were when you message her "how are you?" Does she ask now?

What about going to her birthdays, u go? or are in a far off place? she invites? and comes in urs?

What about going to her home in raksha bandhans to get a rakhi tied?
Do you still call her sis? and does she consider you a brother?

What about your dream of becoming one of her best friends? going to movies, theme parks etc, pulling her cheeks lol.

Remember, whole year u thought that you would hug her on farewell and say i miss you to her. U never did that, and u still regret. U thought of explaining some deep things to her on that day, but u didn't gathered the courage to do so.

Tomorrow i will collect admit card, and its my b'day a day after. I wish to meet her, and give her a chocolate, if we met. I had to decided to go with porvil to her class to meet her, i won't go alone, cause they bully me, and it hurts.
I will say sorry to her, and would do efforts to ripen the fruit of friendship, even if she doesn't put any efforts to it. One day, i would make a difference in her life, and i would matter to her, like she matters to me. She would love me(as a friend), and would care for me, i guess, but future will reveal everything.
Don't worry about it, everything will be alright. Focus on karma than the fruit, if your intentions are real, one day you will win her friendship.

How fortunate you really are, you have a brain, ur once crush is now your best friend, you got really caring parents, caring friends, u over rid depression.

Work hard, and achieve your dreams with all all ur might fat boy.

You remember why u started writing this? To smile whenever you will read this, and show it to someone who matters to you the most.

Oh, I forgot, i was doing differential equations, 20 questions done, and total 111.
12:17 a.m., lol, need to study till 2, remember that staying up whole night due to coffee? lol
And always remember, you ain't worthless, and you're important.

Goodbye dear, and take care of that pretty heart of yours.
And fat ass, go call ur friends now, and say how much you love them.