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Parašytas: 08-12-2017
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Bus išsiųstas: 08-12-2018
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Hi sweetie,
It's been less than three months since you told me about her. The pain is less because slowly but surely I'm slowly accepting reality, that you chose her over me. Until now, I'm still baffled by your reason, why you chose her. It seems to me you chose her, only because she's there. I think it's utterly stupid to leave a deep relationship like ours no matter the distance. I still wonder why you kept me all those times, if I had known, I wouldn't have invested so much feelings and emotions for you. It was like the pain I felt before with my ex. The deeper I felt for you, the deeper was the pain. Was I not good enough to fight for? I remember when I told you, how terrified I was because my feelings got stronger each day. Now, I'll be more careful. I will never love this way ever again especially if you know you'll just lose it one day.
The pain is too much, I dont want to ever feel that kind of pain again. It almost ruined me, body and spul. Maybe someday, we will be just strangers. I'll be someone you just used to know.
Please know I didn't write this to make you feel guilty, I'm writing this so I can cope with the pain of missing and losing you. By the time you read this, I'll be fine. Studying and working in AU is still part of my plan, but not just yet.
I love you, from your nellie back in 8 dec 2017. :)
It's been less than three months since you told me about her. The pain is less because slowly but surely I'm slowly accepting reality, that you chose her over me. Until now, I'm still baffled by your reason, why you chose her. It seems to me you chose her, only because she's there. I think it's utterly stupid to leave a deep relationship like ours no matter the distance. I still wonder why you kept me all those times, if I had known, I wouldn't have invested so much feelings and emotions for you. It was like the pain I felt before with my ex. The deeper I felt for you, the deeper was the pain. Was I not good enough to fight for? I remember when I told you, how terrified I was because my feelings got stronger each day. Now, I'll be more careful. I will never love this way ever again especially if you know you'll just lose it one day.
The pain is too much, I dont want to ever feel that kind of pain again. It almost ruined me, body and spul. Maybe someday, we will be just strangers. I'll be someone you just used to know.
Please know I didn't write this to make you feel guilty, I'm writing this so I can cope with the pain of missing and losing you. By the time you read this, I'll be fine. Studying and working in AU is still part of my plan, but not just yet.
I love you, from your nellie back in 8 dec 2017. :)
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