to a recent graduate.

i'm sorry you wasted your time on someone whose care and love changed with the phases of the moon. they both came in tides, and sometimes i drowned in how much i cared for you. now, however, i feel emotionless.

i'm sorry- please don't go chasing after shooting stars to fill a place that i once filled. stars aren't permanent either. find yourself stability within yourself. ha perhaps i am wasting my time, maybe you don't care anymore and this little letter is useless. but i at least owe you this as an apology.

for a short while, i would have choked on hell fire and drowned in flames if it meant your happiness and satisfaction. that short while has ended. i don't think you understand how much you meant to me back then, how i clung and relied on you. the moon is but darkness without the sun, and you were my sun. times have changed though, i find myself accepting this darkness, accepting myself.

i'm sorry. i'm so sorry. for everything. for letting you get close. for hurting you if i did. for changing. for my reckless words and impulsive actions.

i hope you find someone you deserve, someone safe, a constant. i hope you stop believing you are cursed with bad luck. consider this as goodluck, that you have finally rid yourself of me. i hope you live a long and happy life. i will not forget you, you'll always have pages in my book and i won't ever tear them off. take care please and don't ever doubt yourself.

truly,
a current senior.