Dear Niha,
How's it going???? We're stuck at home right now. I'm sooooo bored and so done with Papa and Niya Chechi. They're so frustrating. Anyways, I think you had enough of that. Corona is really fucking annoying. It's been ages since I've seen my friends. Yesterday was Elsa's birthday. As usual, the mothers went all out. They did some bullshit like one compliment for each letter of her name. Like what??? They don't do that shit for any of the other kinds. For some reason, they're so special. Anyways, yes I still like him. I don't even know why. He's cute and funny but a really shit person? I dunno. I guess he's not that bad. I don't think he likes me though. I haven't seen him in ages, so I doubt I still like him. By the way, this was the era of TikTok. That's right. I'm obsessed with TikTok right now. Not obsessed but whatever. I'm sure TikTok's been deleted already lmao. I hope you're done with school now. What a lucky bitch. I still have 4 years ugh. I hope you took up law too. Ooooh, do you do criminology? That would be so interesting. I don't even think we'll live through this goddamn corona thing. Right now in UAE, there are... Jesus, I don't know. Hold up. There are currently 2539 cases holy shit. Niya keeps saying if I die, I die. Nah, bro, I want to live until I get this letter at least. Life honestly doesn't feel real anymore. I made banana bread yesterday and today Niya made gobi Manchurian. I asked why? And she was like cause you showed me up yesterday. I was like bitch wtf. If you're wondering how I'm writing such good English right now, it's Grammarly lmao. Ms Sanghar doesn't teach me shit, I actually despise her. So, in case I'm not even alive in 5 years I think imma end this soon.
Tata bye bye see you later (an iconic line from Noel if you don't remember) Oh yeah Churchill and Secret 5. Jeez. My sister's still obsessed with Chettan so that's amazing. Who even gives a shit. She thinks he likes him and I'm like wot. You think anything gonna happen with you two when our parents are friends. Like what a dumbass. I kinda hate S5 right now. They're just so extra is all. My mom DESPISES them. I get why too. 5 Idiots isn't that bad though. I really hate Elsa and Evin and Evita though. They have no consideration, just a bunch of dickheads. What I really hate about S5 is how they think my sister's an angel when in reality she's the worst. They hate me (I think) and I hate them. Works out well enough. I honestly miss school cause I had nice friends in school, unlike S5. Speaking of S5, I absolutely hate Amma's Keto group. They're so annoying God. They think they're saints or something and Amma does too. Thush aunty specifically. She thinks her family is so amazing, they're annoying. Anyways, that's the main reason I miss school, I had real friends there, Ameerah, Shabna, Alicja, Fayrouz, MUKTHI. But the Shabna, Fayrouz, Alicja group is ehhhh. They're just really unwelcoming. Mallu gang is going good too. Basically anything except S5. Ever since Preethi aunty went it's been like this. But no need to dwell on the past. I've been reading a LOT cause of quarantine. I just read An Ember in the Ashes, it's amazing though. I was just reminded of another reason I hate my sister. I was drawing and she walked in on me. I didn't want to show her my drawing so I told her I would show her later. An hour later, I find her digging around in my room without my permission, looking for the "blackboard". We know what she was doing. I made a private account. She requested and kept ANNOYING ME TO ACCEPT. I didn't want to because so so goddamn judgemental. She's just dumb and really bitchy. Since Suni aunty left, praise the Lord, Amma has to do all the work. I help her out cause I feel so bad. She's literally juggling her job, housework, her role as a mother, everything. Do Niya or Papa do anything to help her or me? Noooo. They can't be nice for once in their lives. I actually hate them both. Okay, I understand Papa. He has to handle his job. Hes the provider in the family, the person who's keeping us alive. But my sister. Her exams got cancelled, she has nothing to study. Her teachers aren't even giving her any work. But nooooo, she chooses to sit in her room and watch movies. She watched 5 movies in the span of one day. ONE DAY. She can't even put her plate in the dishwasher but she can do all that shit. On top of that, Amma and Papa just let her get away with this. Not fair. One time, I didn't put MY plate in the dishwasher, and there was an actual riot. Like what the hell. Even when I'm on my oeriod, I have to do all the shit at home. All my sister does is eat, what a fatass. I know I might regret saying all this shit about people 5 years from now, but I can't deal with this any longer.
Wow, this just turned into a confessional. I needed to unload somewhere. Is what I said when my mom found me pooing on the side of the road. Anyways, my hands hurt from typing. But I'm seriously considering keeping a diary now. Nah, my sister probably wants to read that too, just how she read through all my messages with Elsa and even my own friends. It's like I can't have any privacy anymore. Jesus. Anyways, imma head out now.
Byeeeee
-Niha from 5 years ago (14 yrs old)